acrylic paint on canvas, textured from blueberry pie filling.
instead of puking out the blue berry pie I was going to eat I made this. she is a visual representation, a physical entity I’ve wanted to be for so long. my need to paint her deathly thin body was driven by my mad desire for thinness. nothing I say, write, or create expresses myself to the fullest. nothing. i just want to be nothing, i am nothing, that is all, and nobody will ever fucking get it. all i wanted was for all of that nothingness to show so presently, i am too much of a fuck up to ever be able to get there.